It all ends, not with a bang but with a whimper

By Amber Brown, Staff Intern

So we have finally reached the end of this wonderful school year, and while I don’t expect any huge ceremony, what does school ending really feel like?

This entire break has just been like a very long weird summer vacation where we can’t travel anywhere and we just stay home.

I realized that as of this year there probably won’t be any defining moment when school feels like it’s really over. There will just be classes that cease to exist. No more inconsistent or sporadic homework. No more looking surprised at your Pinnacle when you see that there were assignments you should have done and you didn’t do them.

It’s just a whole lot of nothing, being followed by a whole lot more of … nothing. This got me thinking into what really is School. If this was school torn down to the Bare Essentials, it’s pretty much nothing.

In this strange experience I realized that I need people more than I thought I did. I missed strangers I would talk to in the hallways. I missed lunch times with my friends. Because that’s all school really was for me. I mean there was learning, but who really cares for that. The reason I went to school was to see other people.

This weird limbo thing never really did it for me. It feels more like School ended when the schools closed and now we’re just in denial.

I expected a lot more for my first year of high school. I expected tears to be shed on what I had thought was going to be the last day.

Instead I just left one day expecting to have to turn in a ton of homework on Monday, just to be relieved that I didn’t have to. Later I’d be hit with the ton of bricks that I wouldn’t be able to see all the people who I was leaving behind for a very long time.

By the end of my first year I should be solidifying new friendships and seeing glad goodbye to the teachers who I didn’t like and a sad one to teachers I did. I should be excited to go on vacation or to finally get my driver’s license. Instead I get to just hang out here and do more of … nothing just like I have been doing this entire time.

So as I sign off officially with my last paper for the Tornado Times, I would like to say to everyone at school that as this all ends I wish I could have had all of you there with me.

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